bear in Edinburgh: what ever will be, will be!

看到O9贴出来的我们上次去柏林的照片。现在看到这些老照片，阳光依旧灿烂，可是笑容也许有些退色，因为不知道什么时候才能再一起旅行。马上和赵小婷要再去柏林啦，回来把她的照片ps上去呵呵。话说德国人真是有礼貌。

吃完午饭，打开苹果看看八卦，无意中看到令我非常惊讶的照片，请看看下面两幅图中的主人公是谁？？

答案清往下看。也许是因为卓别林的形象永久的定格在八字胡须，小礼帽，有点不适应。

Figo要退役了，我也正式从伪球迷回归非球迷。运动的魅力于我，不是挥汗如雨的激情，不是团队精神的感动，而是像我这么一个拿去超市买菜当健身的人，也会每周末熬夜看德甲意甲。球员的职业生涯是短暂的，伪球迷的看球生涯也是短暂的。留在记忆里的，只剩下2000年欧锦赛Figo的呼风唤雨，2002年世界杯被泡菜国黑掉的无奈；只剩下在玩FIFA时调满Figo的指数，并让他当前锋疯狂进球的点滴。

退役了也好，好好陪伴家人吧。千万别来中国踢球...

享受爱丁堡最美好的季节，我懒惰的理直气壮。将近午夜还能看到天边将熄的最后一抹晚霞，像不再等待的时光的尾巴，看得见却捉不着。The clock is ticking, I’d better hurry…

It seemed to be a really nice day, but it’s cold as hell…

Stirling最古老的学校之一，也是最好的学校之一。这次打入学校内部，才发现这里的人英语口音非常纯正，看来苏格兰口音的邪恶轴心是在格拉斯哥。虽然学校外表看着像飞机场，不过学校里面还是非常温馨。游泳池，健身房，图书馆，植物园，各种设施一应俱全。虽然学生都看着像不良少年，不过昨天听爱丁堡的一个副校长说，Stirling High的教育质量和学生素质很不一般。话说采访校长的时候老师的录音笔居然没电了，于是乎微笑的看着我: It’s OK; Han is going to take wonderful notes…当时头上就三大滴汗…

俺妈悄然又抱回一只狗，怕俺爸生气，把狗藏在阳台上。不过老爸嘴里说明天就给扔掉，还是对它爱护有加，并取名为Bear Junior…当然绝对不能让它和大Bear碰面，不然Bear就拿它当老鼠吃掉了…不过貌似还没学会上厕所，据说上了地毯就放水，和大bear有一拼。家里订的报纸都不够用…

翻出Bear一号小时候的照片，看看它眼神里闪烁的邪恶光芒，再看看bear junior那可爱的表情，不过当然狗不能貌相。说不定比bear是有过之而无不及。

A Little Madness in the Spring
  Is wholesome even for the King
  But God be with the Clown
  Who Ponders this Tremendous Scene
  This Whole Experiment of Green
  As if it were His own!

                                             ---  Emily Dickinson

不情愿的睁开眼睛，望着窗帘缝隙间透过的不寻常的光亮。早已经习惯每天拉开窗帘面对毫无生气的乌云，幸运的是尚不抑郁。前天则是例外，雪花恍恍惚惚的飘着，不情愿的落在地上，淘气些的想借着汽车开过的气流重新飞舞，显得有些徒劳。路人匆忙的脚步下，洁白的雪花也化成一滩黑泥。隔着窗户，似乎都能听到雪花的哀鸣。今天，则一觉醒来在阳光明媚的午后，天蓝得有些虚伪。爱丁堡的天气就是这样，给你一巴掌，然后塞给你块儿糖。

"we are what we repeated to do. Excellence…is not an act, but a habit.”---Aristotle.

当平庸成为一种习惯，人生似乎也就定格了。养成好习惯，从小做起。

给俺爸：我做饭太有天赋了…早知道去当厨师了…

I am not the kind of person whose passion is expressed so freely. I have tried to look emotionless, where my face doesn't give away what's on my mind. The efforts do not always pay off, but at least I don't get emtionally attached too easily. Having said that, I do have respect for those who are able to come out of their shells, and those who are so exuberant that they fire up the others. I've had pretty exciting christmas and new year celebrations with my friends and colleagues. The world is full of smart and brilliant people. Well, at least I am always surrounded by extremely smart people and their awesomenesses light up my life. I am not a man with many words when it comes to expressing my gratitude, but I would like to say thank-you to all of you smart and joyful guys who make me a better person. Sometimes you are less as friends and more as teachers.

Marianne Williamson says: we were born to make manifest the glory of god that is within us. It makes more sense to me if we get rid of several words: we were born to make manifest of the glory that is within us. For what it is worth, I need to learn to be confident of who I am as a person. But, I still have to remain open to absorb the best things and to bring out the best in me.

Life is too short. 'At my back I always hear; Time's wingèd chariot hurrying near'. Marvell originally intends to scare us with aging and death. I am actually cool with those things. But I don't want to end up old and pathetic, sighing that those were the best of times, and those were the worst of times. Whining about the lost opportunities is so unbecoming and dull. While sitting in silence, I am delighted to feel ignorant and vulnerable again because these are the urges that motivate me. At such time I see off the year of 2008, and hopefully my old self. 2009 is gonna be just fabulous.

O9, 和你一样，我也舍不得过去得美好。按照沈从文的说法，我是多么愚蠢的人，时间飞车的追赶下，纠结于生活得失取舍，最终却安于现状。自己就是个凡人，不会斗胆对多么崇高的理想倾心。生活道路比较单纯，心思间捉摸的就是些无足轻重的小事。有花堪折直须折，莫待无花空折枝。未实现的人生价值，就是一堆没有把握住的时间。的确，感叹已经乏然无味了。

照片送给曾一起错过Hog的O9, 忠于信仰的小朋友，在北京的大编和二小姐同学（谢谢你的散文一样的新年祝辞）, 妖怪Bobo东东，还有所有的好朋友 :)

苹果上看到的，潘婷广告 :)

I was in the mood for something light-hearted...Just a wee bit of procrastination won't hurt, right? But before you know it, the perfect schedule is all wonky and everything PANTS. 

Failure is not the only punishment for laziness; there is also the success of others.
I am not THAT competitive, but it's kinda true. It does hurt when you see other people doing so great with their lives. 

上周去小朋友那里玩狗狗，那么友好的狗我还是第一次见。让我对拉布拉多的印象提升不少。小朋友的厨艺又有长进了。还有有钱人和我们想得不一样...

周末去Josephine的天才男友家，还有Ian和Bonny, Good Fun! 当晚最经典一幕：槟狗西施...Only funny if you were there...

爷爷八十大寿 :)

我就说总觉着自己不大对劲，原来我已经患有“严重精神疾病”...那这样论文可不可以申请extention...LoL

(http://news.qq.com/a/20081123/000341.htm)

本报北京11月22日电 (记者 李晓宏)由总后卫生部组织、北京军区总医院牵头制定的《网络成瘾临床诊断标准》近日通过专家论证，意味着我国医学界诊断“网瘾”将实行标准化，“网瘾”也首次被该标准列为精神疾病治疗范围。

根据《网络成瘾临床诊断标准》，网络成瘾是指个体反复过度使用网络导致的一种精神行为障碍。症状界定有七项标准，其中一项量化的指标是平均每天连续使用网络达到或超过6小时，而且这种症状达到或者超过3个月。

深秋季节，候鸟南飞。稍晚孵化的雏鸟，来不及在旅途开始前学会飞行，被自己的群落抛弃。孤零零的在落叶中哀鸣，香颂般浪漫的法国乡村，温婉四溢的秋色，对它有什么意义呢？童年时光，无忧无虑。小女孩修长的手指拂过琴键，天赋与勤奋，父母爱抚的目光，上帝也会嫉妒吧。一份血癌诊断书，幼时的梦想，都未能成行，梦还没有醒，就已经结束了。

虚弱的小女孩望着车窗外，第一场冬雪带不来往日的活泼，白茫茫中一个灰色的小身影还在奋力的向着南方挣扎。

高中一年级，刚刚搬入文艺巷。周二晚上10点钟电影频道的原声影院，原来曾是那么有品位。爸妈已经睡了，蜷缩在妈妈坚持要买的硬邦邦的红木家具上，哀伤的音乐余音未了，手中的半个苹果只咬了一小口。有些怀念那个善感的年纪。看蝴蝶梦都能自我加累。从来不是个性张扬的人，活在自己的世界却充满了虚荣。一个半满的茶杯，我总看到的是空着的一半。是悲观还是贪婪？

天气开始变冷的时候，和小朋友去IKEA，买了这盆便宜的植物。图的是它的一丁点儿绿意。再微再薄，我也没有什么好挑剔的。放在窗前，含蓄有余，美感不足，吸引来的尽是些灰黑的小飞虫，从不见蜜蜂蝴蝶的身影。当然，秋冬时节，也不能要求太高。

穷人家的孩子早当家，无名小草也绝不娇气。我的不冷不热，并不影响第一朵小花的开放。A silent breakout. 一边吃着fish and chips， 一边感慨，小花也许渺小，却不自卑。毫不懈怠的含苞，毫不懈怠的绽放。

到底自卑消磨了意志，还是刺激了超越，我没有兴趣。等待开花的日子虽然漫长，却总有盛开的时刻。这种说法太过乐观，也许是阿Q先生说的吧。无名小草开花了，体现的价值是多么的卑微，即使它自己已经满足，是否也有些人乐鱼亦乐的空浮。

今天Gale说，there are two kinds of PhD students: those who are brilliant, and those who are finished. 傻傻的乐了半天，却都是苦笑的味道，一杯放了蜂蜜的姜茶都掩盖不了的青涩。自己过得很充实，不知为什么，也很快乐，就像我的小花一样，活在自己的世界里面，花开的瞬间只有惊喜没有精彩，却也不妨投入些许期待。

忍受着Joe浓重的北爱口音，吃着他烤糊的西兰花，Craig难吃无比的牛肉土豆汤，却还要皱着眉头喝下去，想着还是昨天和小朋友吃小全羊火锅比较过瘾。头疼下周二怎么和Jim交差，头疼论文没有什么进展，头疼头发长了实在懒得出门去理发，头疼冰箱空了可是超市太遥远。突然不知不觉地微笑，也许直觉中自己的幸福感，会不经意的自我发散。自我定位，还不是真正的PhD candidae, 目标就是明年的first year board。早就知道自己不是才华卓越的人，先努力成为完成博士论文的人吧。

对了叶大编和o9，小朋友发现了个新的火锅，还做韩料嘿嘿~~

To O9: 等你回来一起explore :)

To 赵小婷: craig house 是麻玩？

What happiness lies in wait on such a beautiful day?

Thanks to David for the ride, and for the fab brunch...at 3pm... (I still don't get it...why it is not lunner??)

Places visited: Cramond Village and Broughton Street

Places of Interest: Cramond, River Almond, Firth of Forth, Broughton Bistro

Broughton Bistro in Edinburgh
Located on the corner of Broughton Street & Broughton Place, with it's large windows & relaxed atmosphere, this Bistro is a great place to watch Edinburgh go by.

My Comments: Char grilled chicken skewers with a peanut dip

                        homemade burgers

                         Highly Recommended. (我不是做广告的...)

Cramond is a popular suburb with whitewashed houses which overlook the River Almond as it opens into the Firth of Forth. Excavations have provided evidence that a Roman camp was based here as early as 142. A Roman bath has been uncovered near Cramond Inn.

The older houses along the wharf are typical of traditional south-east Scottish vernacular architecture, constructed in stone with harling white lime render finish, with facing stone window and door surrounds and crow-step gables, roofed with orangey-red clay pantiles imported from the Netherlands. A ruined water mill lies further up the Almond along a quiet walk past a yacht club and sailing boats moored in the river.To the east a sand beach and waterfront esplanade provides a popular walk to Silverknowes and Granton. On the other side of the Almond, (once accessible by a rowing-boat ferry) the Dalmeny Estate has a pleasant walk through Dalmeny Woods along the shore of the Firth of Forth.

Offshore, Cramond Island has WW II fortifications and is linked to land by a causeway with a line of concrete pylons on one side, constructed as a submarine defence boom. At certain low tides sand extends to the island, tempting visitors to visit the island, though occasionally some are stranded by the incoming tide.

My Comments: Edinburgh is the kind of city that you can NEVER get bored with. I am amazed that one can easily find some beautiful places to relax within 15 minutes drive in Edinburgh.

(Resources: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cramond)

How well do I know my city? 

Of course, Edinburgh isn't exactly "my city" yet, but getting lost in this small city, besides being totally embarrassing, was completely a wake-up call, because I soon realize that I am not only directionally challenged, but also a stranger to this beautiful city I've lived in for more than a year.

Now I am a man with a plan: I am gonna go around all the dark and mysterious corners of the city and write them down --- starting today.

11th Oct 2008

Thanks to Craig for the guide :) and...of course, keep me from getting lost...

Places Visited: Morningside and Bruntsfield

Place of Interest: Blackford Hill, Blackford Pond, and the Holy Corner

Holy Corner, a colloquial name for a small area of Edinburgh,  is actually part of the area more properly known as Burghmuirhead, itself part of the lands of Greenhill. Holy Corner lies between the areas of Bruntsfield and Morningside. It is well-known to local people (and most Edinburgh taxi drivers) and has borne the name for a long while, but never appears on maps or in addresses, being really just a nickname.

The name derives from the crossroads, where Morningside Road, Colinton Road and Chamberlain Road meet; on each of the corners of the crossroad is a church (although two are slightly set back.)

The churches of Holy Corner are: Christ Church (Scottish Episcopal Church), Morningside United (Church of Scotland and United Reformed Church) and Morningside Baptist Church (Baptist Church).

My Comments: Unless you are a big fan of churches, it is just an ordinary cornner for you.

(Resources: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holy_Corner)

Blackford Pond is a small but it still manages to attract a variety of bird species, some just visiting, others more permanent residents. Some of the visitors such as grey herons stay for a short time but others such as mute swans stay longer. There is a small islet in the middle of the pond which was re-landscaped a couple of years ago in the hope that swans would breed there. So far this has not happened, probably because it wasn't enlarged and heightened enough, but the geese and moorhens are happier.

My Comments: Unless you are looking for a quiter place to fool around with your girl friend, or you are crazy about birds, or you are under 5, it is just an ordinary pond for you. 

Blackford Hill lies 2 miles (3 km) south of the centre of Edinburgh and rises to 164m (539 feet). Prominently located on the hill is the green-domed Royal Observatory, which includes the Institute for Astronomy of the University of Edinburgh. The grand red sandstone archway at the entrance to Observatory Road was built in 1887 to commemorate Sir George Harrison, Lord Provost and Member of Parliament for Edinburgh South, who had died two years previously. It was Harrison who had facilitated the purchase of 43 ha (107 acres) of the hill by the city in 1884 to make it available as a public park.

My Comments: Students from School of Science and Engineering are soooo lucky!

(Resources: http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/Image:Royal_Observatory_Edinburgh_on_Blackford_Hill-Oct2005.jpg)

Bookshops: charity shops.

I got a whole collection of D.H.Lawrence's works for only 5 pounds.

We had Nando's yesterday.

I think we had a bunch of mixed memories of Nando', some of which are not exactly fun memories that one would love to hold on to. But you can't really blame it on this cute little restaurant that offers exotic flavour chicken that you can't refuse. I dribble everytime when the Portugal national flag reminds me of the thought that Luis Figo might have a bite or two when he was still young.

We watched the Dark Knight yesterday.

What a sick, dark, depressing and offensive movie. Did I say sick?  I think the core moral debate of this movie is so genius and so inspiring that not only could it make the white knight fall to the dark side, but also break the boundaries and attract young and unstable kids to explore human nature's embodiment of anarchy and antiorder. Just like what Guhuozai series had done to a whole general of rebelling kids.

It's like the Holywood is tired of portraying Russians as "terrorists" and pick up this new hobby of mocking Chinese fast-growing economy as a result of illegal deals and corruption. They finally admit that Chinese people are good at calculation but still play servants for the western world, even in Gotham's undergound world of crime. Why is that all the evil souls always reincarnated in Oriental, or Middle Eastern, or Black, or Alien's bodies, but caucasians are just pure and strong enough to resist the attractions from the dark?

I am stressed.

"When a chapter draws to and end, the new chapter maybe hard to write however not writing it at all would be a shame." ----says who?

Like Jim said, I do need a new system for note taking and a new appraoch of time management.

But stressed-out people like me have no time for time management and stress management courses, nor do I think they are useful anyway. I read an interesting article the other day saying that leisure time luxury is no longer the indicator of how wealthy one is. Time poverty in this fast changing world now signifies power. In other words, those who hold power normally do not have time to live well.

I still have time for dinner and cinema which is probably the reason why I am not at the top of my game. But like the author says, unlike other values such as quality, time is actually measurable and less abstract. You either have time to stop, to care, to play with your children, or you don't. Spoil yourself once in a while in your spare time is an old-fashioned stress managing method that I adore.

东同学~昨天又去玩了Dance Dance Revolution..Hoho..发现现在可以不用你带就跳过红色脚的180了...可惜这个东西国内已经淘汰了..诶...

       我当然不是向日葵，却也和雨中的向日葵一起，望穿乌云，沉重的守望太阳。阴霾的爱丁堡，路边的花店里总有那么几只微笑的“太阳花”，在阳光灿烂的银川的花店则难觅其踪。或许在爱丁堡，向日葵就好比放晴娘，怒放的是一份期盼。

       记不得是那位作家说过，夜晚是白天的延续，是解放；因为白天是大众的，夜晚是自己的。其实不会那么计较，还是孩子的时候过惯了白天期待繁星，夜晚渴望阳光的日子。年幼的我却没有想到，白天和夜晚转一个身，身后是再也追不会的昨天。

       无论是阴云细雨，还是漫漫长夜，似乎还是遮不住爱丁堡的色彩。就好像Alex今天早晨如数家珍的介绍路边的建筑，尽管在他讲到第三个设计师的名字时，我的思绪就不知道飞到多远去了。把我送到宿舍门口，他说：“我对我的城市很熟悉。”心里一沉，我说不出西夏崛起的年代时间，我背不出岳飞踏破贺兰山阙的长诗。惭愧不已。

       知道妖怪在纠结，知道波波在感伤，知道东在奋斗，知道萝卜在努力，知道自己在重新开始。到底是熟悉的城市，有熟悉的好朋友，很快安顿好了。最然很想伤感一下，可是心情却是出奇的阳光。过去几个月的历练，还是一笔财富吧。

       这个世界并不在意你的自尊，而是要求你在自我感觉良好前先有作为。是谁说的，不记得了，却很受用，尤其对我。

听了韦钰部长的讲座，情绪和性格受到基因的控制，原来已有定数，还争甚么？大家要保护好眉骨，那后面的薄薄一层组织控制了人们的情绪指数。幸亏周济的身后有这样的女强人，可惜就要退居二线了。

过了很多天渴时饮饥时餐醉时歌的快活日子，陆续在茶马遗风送走了东东和李老师，延续着18年的朋友感情。李彬和萝卜还是那般默契，你吟我和，世态人情事业名利，一支烟销少年愁。和妖怪聊天总是件很愉悦的事情，听Bobo傻呼呼的笑声就像回到了大港时代。英国时候也是无忧无虑，仔细想想是因为有叶大编、小朋友、O9soma她们这几位好朋友的缘故。

好在上述众人除了小朋友和叶大编，都不使用Space，避免了尴尬和肉麻。这过去的快一年时间，也算同时体会了政府、学校和企业的不同工作，似乎对未来择业有了更多的把握，也对自己的能力有了更清楚的认识。贤的是他，愚的是我，做冤大头，也还要争下去的。

收拾好东西，准备出发！说实话，其实我很想很想很想去杜拜...

去华纳看了木乃伊3，无语中。

又到了每年的这个时候，立秋后的凉爽天气和又苍老一岁的我是那么的协调。在40多个小时没有合眼，又风吹日晒了3天后，再熬着看了几天奥运，终于发烧感冒病倒了，看来外干中强也还是有个限度的。

居然适应了宋世雄的“男高音”，现在看女排比赛不用关静音了，男排挺争气的，又心痒痒想打排球了。奥运开幕式太文艺了，估计光解释内涵就能写本书，连中国人不听讲解，很多东西都领悟不到。

最近总和“年轻人”混在一起，刚上大学的孩子们，在四川的、山东的和江苏的，还有在海南的、河南的和湖南的，现在的孩子真是少年老成。

生日过的很乱，蜡烛吹了，长面吃了，酒也喝了，蛋糕全都放坏了。今年有所不同，收到的生日礼物出奇的实用，唯一的例外可能就是还在天上飘着的东东送的护身佛像，不过想想要去鬼国，还是挺实用。最近光BBC就报道了好几起中国学生出事身亡的案件，大家安全第一啊。

给波波说明年不过生日了，就停在24了。波波许久后发回一条短信：停摆了啊。忽然想起小时候喜欢用手去抓古老座钟的钟摆，认为钟摆停了时间也就停了；还喜欢拿着练琴的节拍器骗隔壁小朋友说这是时间和天气调节器（我说我把天气调到下雨，结果第二天真的下雨，该小朋友崇拜了我很久）。悲哀的是，控制时间的能力只出现在电视剧中，还被小日本鬼子给掌握了（Heroes中那个小日本）。

明年就是中年危机了，这一年要学出点成绩来。

很庆幸不用翻译了，省的丢人，不过准备的时候把老爷爷岩画方面的东西研究了一天，居然也理解了不少，这才知道贺兰山岩画在国际岩画界的地位是这么的重要。虽然宁夏的学者们在20多年前就开始了对贺兰山岩画的研究，可是保护工作却迟迟不到位，以致于“国宝级”的牛图腾被人盗走、无良的商贩用石膏沓模型破坏岩画、旅游者在岩画旁自创”现代岩画”外加留下大名；而宣传工作则更是滞后，估计现在岩画在国际上的知名度比在国内还高，连区内某校校长还问“你们研究岩画干嘛”。

也了解了国内南北方的岩画的特点，北方多是petroglyph, 也就是雕刻岩画，还可以细分成线刻和面刻；南方则多是pictograph, 即使用颜料的石壁画，广西著名的花山岩画还有台湾地区的岩画都属于这一类型。可气的是贺兰山区很珍贵的几幅pictograph被刻上了“某某到此一游”，幸亏有PS和ImageJ。

来到吴忠，这里的羊肉很鲜美，不腥不腻。想起中国国家地理杂志将银川平原评为中国十大新天府，银川人幸福程度居然高居全国第二。是不是闭塞的银川人有做“井底之蛙”之嫌：没见识过上海北京的灯红酒绿、苏州南京的文化底蕴更别提纽约伦敦的繁华喧嚣，满足与自己的小世界。或许吧，但是人与人的价值观不同，人生观更不同。只是我自己感到很骄傲，有机会去感受大都市的衣香鬓影，也可以安心的做幸福的银川小市民。

还是感叹，仅仅几百里之外，就是被联合国教科文组织定为不适合人类生存的地区。台湾的专家评价这里是寸草不生，也许来自台湾宝岛，很难像本地人一样珍惜这片沙漠中的绿洲。马上要走了，这次不是很伤感，可能是最近银川实在太热了，怀念英国的阴天了...

萝卜回家工作了，好消息。

被叶大编点了，这些问题，就算给我也有点太细腻了...

1.上一次哭是什麽時候…爲什麽？

就前几天，眼睛里进沙子怎么都弄不出来，后来憋出眼泪才把沙子弄出来...

2.有过不求回报的为一个人付出的经历吗？

没有

3.認爲分手後的男女朋友還能做普通朋友嗎？

先define 普通朋友...

4.妳真心愛過一個人嗎？

自己算么...

5.如果愛情是場戲.要劇終散場.你還要演麽?

观众吧...道具...

6.你相信承諾嗎？爲什麽？

我经常不履行承诺，不过我这种人是少数，所以相信...

7.最初的夢想是什麽?

大学学建筑... 

8.妳覺得朋友相處最重要是什麽？

性格

9.最近的願望是什麽?

长胖长壮长高

10.有沒有一首歌，會讓妳想起曾經的過往，而且每次聽到，都會很懷念？

beatles的There are places I remember，不过现在已经麻木了

11.你喜欢你的男朋友/女朋友是什么样的穿着风格？

什么都行，好看就行

12.有想過自己的人生嗎?

连下辈子都想了

13.你心中的他/她,必須具備一個最重要的標准是什麽?

聪明然后头发多（据说孩子的智商来自母亲的遗传，我已经这么笨了，好歹要中和一下，当然聪明还好，头发多比较重要）

14.现在对感情是一个怎样的态度？

心有余而力不足

15.在一个与世隔绝的地方,你只能拥有一件东西..你最希望是什么?

superpower

16.如果到了30岁的时候,还是一个人,我该怎么做？

30岁还年轻吧，40岁的时候再想这个问题

17.对你最想说的人说一句话？？

我就是太懒了...

18.你对自己现在的状况有什么看法？

想要成功，从头到脚都要改变

19.你生氣的時候會做什麽？

熟悉的人就爆发；不熟悉的人就假装自己很有涵养

20.最想对点到你的人说一句什么话？

啥时候休个假，来银川玩么！~

也许世界上有我也是个好事情，因为我把丢人的事情差不多都干光了...今天这种场合我居然都六神无主，说话驴头不对马嘴的...希望下面的人都不懂英语...祈祷祈祷...尤其那些记者....不然3年以后回来我可没脸在银川混了，不过也好，就算逼我出去闯啦...

培训也要结束了，今晚因为这个丢人的事情也错过了汇报演出，第一次和学生合影，有些惭愧，其实第一次上讲台，而且没有教材，完全自己组织的内容，跟奶酪赛的，到处都是漏洞...

算了，自我安慰一下，反正还不到24，就当小孩子犯错误了；等过了24岁，要成熟一些，负责任一些，起点不高，但是我的基点实在很低...

欢迎小朋友回家，还有东东也要回银川了哈哈~走之前能见见东东也是很不容易地...

对了，宁夏举办国际贺兰山岩画艺术节和交流会，欢迎大家来银川旅游！

Bean的空间发现的好东西~~leeのzone [http://61568283.qzone.qq.com]

别样的银川

歌词：
[Verse1-ZhenZ]
我从小长在了富宁街上/见到了美女我从来都不心慌/没钱了
我就唐徕渠边逛逛/每天早上的羊杂碎里我都得加汤/富宁街的酒吧彻夜亮着灯光/店里的酒保荤段子是一筐一筐/门口的鸡蛋罐饼吃起来还挺爽/但是缺的就是他做的有点脏（你凑合吃吧）/最享受16小那1米8的篮筐/外边卖的臭豆腐一块钱给你一双/三味书屋去晚了好书都被借光/还是旁边来碗那
凉皮麻辣烫/身为银川人我们在这长大/我们知道这里就叫做宁夏/我们在这玩着自己的HIPA/我们嘴里从来都没有一句废话/银川人觉得这儿像个家/我们就是深深的爱着她/活在银川就是内个美呀/我们都觉得这儿非常伟大
[Verse2-Heaven]
我就是银川最南边的王/你要知道那儿还有个南门广场/德克士门口天天有B-BOY在那乱慌/就像车站门口人多让人心慌/走在这条街
我的南门桥上/我来告诉你老毛的手抓真的很壮/女子监狱天天那武警都很忙/我深爱着银川南门我的家乡/南门人爱家乡也会站在最前/南门桥的馅饼五毛一半/那儿的姑娘品位生活通常人来疯/您可别说南门人没有正型/南门的热情不会跟你较真/如今银川的发展站在最中心/南门人遇到困难不会放弃自己/我们南门迈过落后这道坎
[Verse3-Dragon]
我说一 银川的孩子出门都是打的/还有二 最正宗的西北美食都在这儿/跟上三 在银川 你必须得上贺兰山/说到四 你不得不去的难关清真寺/别忘五 湖滨街 到了下午还得堵/不是六
银川妞还真的算是优秀/轮到七 七月七 Stone正式成立/最后八 是HIPA
我们现在就出发
[Verse4-Fish]
夏天的光明广场美女总是很多/还总有玩板的兄弟把气氛都搞活/闹的晚了咱们街边的大排挡上一坐/羊蹄 抄疙瘩
当然来瓶西夏更火/到鼓楼去你可以买个2手手机/西塔市场除了买菜还能搞点老东西/现在人都泡吧最难的是打的/逛酒吧湖滨街还是第一
[Verse5-Curez]
湖滨街你要来得带两副肝/没胆没量不躺下来我看比较玄/选择太多你没办法不H/全区人民想喝酒都得到这里来/带上你的妞带上你的钱/临走别忘了拿上几颗蓝色小药丸/尽兴尽兴尽情尽情/喝完一场再清醒清醒/再来一碗羊排小揪面（还是喝点鲜奶？）/选择推杯问盏正儿八经酒后清谈(就好这个）/选择就是混混谔谔迷迷蒙蒙拿身体做化学实验/冰琪琳融化在烟雾弥漫/我说妞玩高了你学HOTDOG
转啊转
[Verse5-Fish]
走步行街除了买衣服还能献血/当然讨价还价的本领不能现学/听好的音乐CD还是天堂鸟最绝/地下 美信 商城
还有银川大世界/怀念以前北环路上的那防空洞/现在拆了 扩了 8车道那叫北京路/从光华门到东门外 从西桥巷到同心路/STONE活在银川
走着不一样的路
[Verse6-Xin]
这是别样的银川/美丽的地方/苍茫的贺兰山/心爱的家/塞上的明珠/凤凰之都/生我养我的土地/永远都未曾改变那质朴

教老师们边跳边唱的英文儿童圆圈舞，老师们一致反映我音盲太严重，他们都听不出来调调。无奈下周只好背着琴去弹给他们听了。说到琴嘛：

邻居大叔位居要职，就要退休了，喜欢在傍晚黄金时间来几首二胡小曲，从我回家到现在已经听了5个月撕心裂肺的“小曲儿”了；对面楼的小弟弟很刻苦，坚持不懈练习手风琴，中午休息时间也不曾间断，而且一直练习“同一首歌”；楼上的小妹妹刚开始学习钢琴，爸爸妈妈监督的很紧，每天从C大调开始的音阶就伴随我早晨起床到晚上睡觉。这些持续不断“噪音”也没什么好投诉的，就是不知道为什么我家的小狗刚抱回来的时候叫了几天，他们就非要找到物业说我家养了只狼...

不禁感叹我当年学琴时，我的邻居们是多么的幸福。每天练习时间绝对不超过半个小时，黄金时间绝对在看电视，午休时间绝对在吃零食看杂志。没有耕耘就没有收获，我自愧弗如，没有太多付出，自然在钢琴上无所作为；这些邻居们前途大好，连非亲非故的我都这么被“耕耘”着，收获就是未来某天他们出名了，我可以说：哦，他们曾经是我邻居。

好吧，也许是天气太热，有些烦躁，不应该拿人和动物比，因为人实在比动物复杂太多。现在写这篇日志的时候，就把音乐开的很大声，因为听着二胡锯木头般的声音就发毛。

"...the present is so thoroughly shadowed by other seasons: the revived or receding past, the newly unmeasurable future, the unimaginable time beyond time....with such moments we arrive at the conditions for the special sense of lateness..."

静下心来听Verdi不同时期的作品，努力理解Said的Late Style。Ranely的这种学习方法不太适合我这种严重缺乏文化底蕴的人，为什么我总是那么无知，感觉有些desperate，but late blossoms are still perfectly punctual, right?

终于可以踏踏实实的看女排的比赛，越来越担心未来的女排，如果未来没有了周苏红和刘亚男，没有了快速多变的打法，凭着所谓的双塔和所谓的重炮，中国女排能走多远？年轻的二传在哪里？应该不是已经29岁的魏秋月吧，虽然很支持咱们天津人，可是看着德国队出色的年仅19岁的二传，还是难免担心。

欧洲杯今晚开幕，熬夜看葡萄牙的比赛，久违了，Luis Figo。

Serge, difficult to categorize...

Breakfast with Scot, no more interesting than your average TV movies...(Kein Eisner)

等了许久的电影，先看看美版Vogue的照片吧...

Sara 已经老的不忍心看了，Big 倒是怎么都看不出快55岁了...

三天假期，三个婚礼，深刻体会到生生不息的道理。

3号是希望之星英语大赛宁夏赛区总决赛和颁奖典礼，看着我们中心同事奔波了很久，假期全都忙碌过去了，真是有够辛苦的。过去作为一中的学生，虽然不是什么好学生，还是体会得到一中的优秀的英语教学质量；令人惊讶的是，仅仅几年的时间，银川市的英语教学整体水平进步如此之快。当然和外地学生也许还有差距，但是考虑到我们“西北边区”有限的教学资源和匮乏的语言环境，我还是很为现在宁夏的中小学生感到骄傲。

但是，当上海的小学生说着非常流利的英语时，银川的小学生还在背诵简单的句型应付演讲；当银川的中学生看美剧不需要打字幕的时候，农村个别学校的英语老师也许连字母还背不齐。这不是教师聘任的问题，是严重缺乏合格教师的问题，大多数老师都是从语文数学，甚至化学物理教学岗位上被迫转到英语教学岗位，所谓“零起点”。贫富差距导致教育落后，这样的恶性循环耽误了农村学生。

越来越深刻体会到福特基金等慈善组织为贫困地区英语教师培训做出的贡献之大。

（请忽略下面无病呻吟的部分）

I think I am going through some major crisis in human relations.

The problem is that not anyone can hold "a fair and objective attitude toward those who are different or perceived to be different in any way". But it is also difficult to tell whether the intentions of those who are in favor of being unique are for a good cause or not. Which one is worse, I can't decide. We were taught the virtue of tolerance; but is tolerance a virtue at all?

Jacques Maritain says there are two kinds of tolerance which he refers to the first kind as pseudo tolerance, the second genuine tolerance. As a Catholic philosopher, he suggests that a perfect example of pseudo tolerance can be found in the fact of how Pilate turned his back on Christ and the truth Christ was up for. Point it out if I am wrong, but Christ was crucified by him and what is so tolerant about that? This is not pseudo tolerance, this is a perfect example of being intolerant.

But that's not my problem. I am just confused that if I don't know the truth, should I be tolerant of anything? This time I acutally agree with Maritain that being tolerance doesn't necessarily means to be stupid and I quote: "Christ makes it clear that the truth will make us free (see Jn. 8:32). This freedom allows us to hold fast to truth while patiently tolerating the actions of others who are still seeking it." Of course, all of these are based on the supposition that Christ was right. No offence, but I am an atheist. I prefer what Dewey stands for that although the role of religious insititutions should be honored, only science could reliably further human good.

The highest ethical code put forward by Confucius is "Benevolence". But he also said "don't do onto others unless yourself is offended." Does it mean that if some one kills your brothers, then you are entitled to kill the killer's brother? Of course not, religion and philosophy could not form a valid foundation for morality and social values of a country, but constitution could. The reason why constitution is not as effective as we expected is that it is not scientifically perfected yet.

OK, the above are officially nonsense. Back to the subject, I am far from being open and flexible enough to adapt to this world in which "interpersional relations become paramount". I guess turn to religious beliefs and philosophies for help can't be the ultimate solution of directing my personality toward higher levels of openness. However, they did a good job consoling myself that no one could make you uncomfortable but yourself. Still I have to face the fact that human relations cannot be left to chance and I am ready to try to work on my skills.

Go easy on me, you promise?

(Chinese Philosophy: Benevolence, Harmony & Righteousness; Is Tolerance a Virtue?)

每天都穿过公园回家吃饭，银川最美好的季节，有些贪婪的享受难得含蓄的阳光，偶尔的春雨也不扭捏，应该是随了西北人的性子，潇洒极了。就算今天的沙尘暴有些煞风景，至少情况正在缓解。

这一周的课相对成功了很多，终于。还是很难像大一口语老师那样，使出幼儿教学法，连哄带骗的教我们练语音练口语。尤其面对这么多的老师，都比我大了十多岁。想当年我是那种老师上课一作游戏，我就浑身起鸡皮疙瘩的人，现在让我放开了组织大家游戏，简直就是让狗熊做针线活...而且发现给不知道奥黛丽赫本是谁的老师们讲我对Breakfast at Tiffany's的个人理解真的有些难，或许以后应该drop这些内容。还有一位老师建议我教他们唱“两只蝴蝶”的英文版，说实话，首先，还不如杀了我，其次，还不如杀了我。

刚刚自己发现干了一件非常丢人的事情，好像把我们宁夏的几百万吨甲醛项目说成了甲烷，于是乎，某欧洲国人来考察的时候很惊叹的说：哇，你们能产这么多甲烷，真强...想想我就大汗淋漓的，真是愧对我们宁夏父老。为啥对我的东西这么放心，都没有审核一下，最惭愧的是，我还真不知道甲醛，甲烷，甲醇这些东西到底都是干什么的。话又说回来，现在我的心理素质简直了，不管干了多么丢人的事，睡一觉起来，我都脸不红心不跳，顶多就是晚上偶尔想想就哭笑不得而已，看来脸皮也厚了。

刚才看新闻，青岛那个美国留学学生的家被“打砸抢”了，汗颜。世界这么乱，就是因为有那么多自以为在“主持正义”的人。看过一个纪录片，当年二战德国士兵到死都认为屠杀犹太人是替天行道，美国人更不用提了，突然发现咱们国家制定的不干涉别国内政在现在这个时期是多么的正确。

郑重向大家推荐，美剧Brothers and Sisters。用了整整一个周末，看完了第一季和第二季，（还翻译了一个4000字的论文+一个电影论文摘要+一个农业论文摘要...原来人的潜力是无限的）。

计划生育政策，我们这一代和我们的父母到底牺牲了什么？

去教口语课，下面坐的都是小学和初中教师，意气风发的讲了一个小时，休息的时候和老师聊天，他们说，不仅我说的英语他们听不懂，汉语也没听懂几句（深刻理解为什么O9SOMA会拿我练中文听力了...)

今天下午再讲的时候要放慢语速....

think fast and talk slow...为什么我总是反过来的...

觉着给老师们练习下翻译和口译，还是很有用处的，比如介绍宁夏概况，可是大家都不敢兴趣..诶

狮子座5月运势
小朋友说：这是邪灵... 不过这个月也不要太准了点儿~~没事的时候看看还是挺有意思的...

心情阳光指数：★★★★★★★★★★10 （的确很灿烂）
健康况状指数：★★★★★★★7 （和Bean去吃香喷喷的烤鱼拉肚子了，可能是之前连续的冰激淋奶昔奶茶喝坏了）
本月幸运贵人：狮子座  （希望签证官是狮子座的）
让你头痛星座：狮子座 （自己就让自己头疼）
本月防范小人：狮子座   （算了，签证官还是不要是狮子座的比较好）
本月开运场所：日式餐厅 （开运没戏了..从来不去日料的人）
整体运势：
本月是狮子座的朋友们意气风发的一个月，这段时间里你之前酝酿了许久但却迟迟没有下定决心的事情（回去继续找Jimjim好好学习)，将终于迎来曙光，一切将会有新的开始，不过过程也许会和你想象中有些出入，不会如想象中那般顺利(visa材料），并且需要花去的时间会比预期要长，同时也是在这段时间里，会有和人有关的事情会让你大伤脑筋（单位和教书），为了求全，你必须要好好斟酌如何处理。在5月头7天里，食欲不错，还能有机会享用自己喜欢吃的平日里又不常吃到的美食（有同事结婚..不过怀疑不是因为这个），12号左右的那段时间要注意，凡事不要太心急，也许你会害怕某事会耽误到时间，但是要学会放松，很多事，急不来的。从19号开始到月底（预约的19号签证）你特别容易情绪不稳想东想西，甚至睡不安稳，而在月末的那个周末会遇到有事让你烦恼（莫非没签过？），心情一度闷闷的，不是很好，如果有需要和人互动的重要事项，在安排时间的时候最好回避该时段。

财运分析：
本月的狮子们财运状况不太乐观，这个月狮子座的朋友们开销颇大，请务必想好规划清楚，如何收场才好，洒出去的钱有时候和泼出去的水没什么两样(交给英国人的钱和泼出去的水没什么两样，万一英国佬还拿这个钱支持ZD那可就冤死我了）。

看到苹果上有爱丁堡的支持奥运的游行的照片，太感人了~~赶紧从苹果转过来...

对了，里面还有二小姐举着国旗的英姿，赞一个！~

转贴自：https://forum.powerapple.com/modules.php?name=forum&file=viewtopic&forum=38&topic=29149　苹果论坛~~

一路上感慨越来越发达的公路交通，从银川到延安500多公里的距离，只要4个小时的车程。

好像很多年没有感受我们西北的春天了，都是秋水漫溯的季节离开家，回到家中时，不是

裹着棉衣欣赏冰峰雾凇，就是躲在空调房中期待消去燥热的夏雨。不过再怎么热爱家乡，

银川这个时候还真是说不出有什么美感，出卖荒凉。

陕北比我们早一步进入春天，千树万树梨花苹果花杏花全都开，还能吃上壶口鸭梨和洛川

苹果。陕西八大怪，就记住一个，油泼辣子一道菜，就着辣子品尝陕北各种杂粮小吃，最

喜欢的是里面有甘草味道的柴火棒的烤饼和绿色的甘泉豆腐干，搅团锅盔之类的我们银川也有，

所以不是很稀奇。

当然最重要的还是在王家坪杨家岭枣园宝塔山沐浴了延安精神，登上黄陵祭拜了我们

共同的祖先黄帝，也不会错过仰慕已久的壶口瀑布，又是一个人杰地灵的地方，

就像承德，就像洛阳。